realizing what He's saying

There I was, sitting in the Mansell’s kitchen, holding a diapered lamb as I fed it out of a bottle. Ms. Sharon, Jillian and I sat around the island countertop, talking about things and what God was teaching us. I love talking to them. There is so much wisdom there, so much that goes straight back to God’s Word.

We shared a lot of things, and I love how when you're talking with others about what you've learned you really go, "Oh that's what God's teaching me!" when all your thoughts really come together and make sense :) I had one of those moments that I will share now: It is God that we are to seek, not God’s WILL, not God’s PLAN, not even God’s BEST. Seek God – plain and simple. If we are seeking His will, we aren’t really seeking Him; we’re seeking a byproduct from Him. If we seek His best, we’re looking to that, and not to Him. Basically, we have made a god (lowercase intentional) in our own image. We’re worshipping the product as we should be worshipping the Producer. I can’t tell you how many times I have sought for God’s will and not for God Himself. I want His best and it’s an honest desire, but sometimes… I go about it in a way that isn't right. If I am not seeking Him, I will not be satisfied. If I do not look to Him for the answers, I won't find them. He is the reason for living, not the secret to getting what we want.

I was telling Mom last night that all the times where I was really seeking God's will, He brought along something where all my trust had to be on Him. I just realized a few weeks ago that He was trying to show me to seek Him and not "God's Will".

"But as for me, I trust in YOu, O Lord, I say 'You are my God'. My times are in Your hand; Deliver me from the hand of my enemies and from those who persecute me." {Psalm 31:14-15}