30

Quite recently, I was asked what my favorite number was. "6", I said. The following week, it was "5". In a couple of days I'll declare my favorite number as "4".

But today, it's 30!

Thirty days until the wedding :)

(my actual favorite number is 7 and it will resume after May 22)

bridal shower pictures

Hope you're ready for a LOT of pictures. Here are many from yesterday, for my mother and anyone else who really wanted pictures. (Mom, a CD with detail shots and stuff is in my possession. These are to fill the time till I get home.)

My cousin-to-be, Crystal

Owl wrapping paper!

Bird platter (love it!)

My first rolling pin. Which is apparently a big deal. Everyone was SO excited over this :)

I'm just happy to use it.

With Grandma Arlene (Bay side)

With Grandma Gerre (Bradford side)

New grandmothers and new mother

Grandma Arlene and Grandma Gerre (look at those primary colors!)

With Grandpa Jack (Bay)

Ribbon bouquet, thanks to Aunt Shannon!

Aunt Shannon, Aunt Kim, new Mom and the Grandmothers (all Bradford side except Grandma Arlene)

The grandfathers - Lowell and Jack

Me with the cookie decorating competion winners - Susan, Faye, Lorinda and new Mom :)

The cookies that tied for second (mine is on the right)

Last to leave - Fern, me, Shannon and new Mom

There ya go!

deserving nothing, getting everything.

A year ago, if you were to ask me what I'd be doing in twelve short months, I would NOT have thought I'd be at my own bridal shower. I would have laughed if someone were to even suppose that. "Engaged?" I'd say, "and who's the groom?"

And yet, the day has ended with a bridal shower behind me. I am richer in things for a new home and realizations about the place God has put me. I love when days end like this!

I sat in a living room as the center of attention, opening gifts. As I ripped open carefully taped sparkly paper and admired shiny new cookie sheets, I realized that twelve months ago, I knew no one in that room. Ten months ago, I'd briefly met a few of them. Two months ago, I met more of them. This afternoon I even met some of them. And because God orchestrated life the way He did, twenty-five or so people gathered today. How's that for "God is good"?

I never really thought that it was about getting showered with gifts anyway. I knew it was that the people who loved you spent time planning and shopping and giving advice. I just didn't realize that there would be so many people who would do that in such a short period of time. Some (new family) got up early this morning just to drive here for the shower!

They showered me (us, since I am not marrying myself, after all) with gifts. They showed me so much love. And they blessed me immeasurably. The advice given was out of years of struggles and triumphs as married women. The genuine interest and care... well, it was genuine. These are ladies who love the Lord, love my new family, and as a result, love me.

I did nothing to deserve this, except finally accept a date with that frustratingly persistent Carson Bay. And that's only after refusing and ignoring him (am I a gem or what? Thank you Carson for pursuing. Thank you God for making him pursue :) ). Clearly, God is in this and I can't take an ounce of credit. Clearly, I am where I am because God has put me here. I'm surrounded by tons of people I don't have much history with but couldn't imagine not having in my life. I live with people who call me daughter though I'm not.

Isn't that just like Him though? We deserve nothing but death (Hell) and God has given us everything - life by the death of His own Son... and then continues to give us great extra stuff. Like people who give you bridal showers and offer you jobs and give you motherly advice. Deserved? Nope. Entitled? Nope.

Humbled... well actually in this case, yes. I am humbled and grateful that I am where I am, that it is not because I am who I am but because God is who He is, and that He's led me here... and that it's so obvious to me that it is Him and not me. I can't imagine my life being anything other than what it is right now. But I said that a year ago.

So there you have it... I am

thankful

blessed

absolutely not entitled

absolutely rich in the people I get to know

...O magnify the Lord with me :)

Never Say Never

Conversion is a complete surrender to Jesus. It's a willingness to do what he wants you to do. - Billy Sunday

When you were younger, no doubt you said "I will never ____". Whether it was wear sequins or wash your reds with whites*, or something not quite so trivial, most of us have made a statement that goes something like that.

Have you noticed that God has a sense of humor?

Are these two questions related? Oh yes they are, you smart cookie!

God is not mean, but He is all about Himself, accomplishing His purpose, and pretty much doing what it takes for Him to get the glory. Often, this requires us being taken down a notch or two. In my life, I've often noticed that when I've said "No, I will not" about something, that same thing ends up happening.

Surrender is not a dirty word, and it's not a horrible thing. It's part of the process that God works in our lives to make us more like Him, to like Him more, and to glorify Him. Sometimes exactly what we need in order to do that is exactly what we don't want. Saying "Okay Lord, have Your way in me" can be the most difficult thing to do, but it's so worth it!

Maybe saying "never" about some things isn't bad, but please don't say it to Him. He will grow you, change you, and be more to you than you ever could imagine if you will allow Him to work!

*washing reds with whites IS a bad idea. Unless you like pink socks.

evolution of a snickerdoodle

Making my favorite cookies. Though I'll gladly take any other kind also, these ones are hard to beat (chunky peanut butter ones and mom's oatmeal cookies are also in the running here).

They ended up quite small, and I restrained myself to three, over the course of three days (which is amazing, if you know me at all). The others were consumed by a grateful fiance and future father-in-law :)

six weeks

We're getting married in six weeks! Can you believe it?

I can't.

things I've enjoyed lately:

...Carson coming for a visit

...studying Hebrews and Galatians :)

...reading the sweet messages people leave with their "RSVPs" for the wedding

...Perry Mason on DVD with my future in-laws

...spring flowers

...renewed energy (I'm not tired all the time anymore!)

...baking cookies

...reading "for fun"

...lengthy letters from wonderful friends

...the internet. how DID we communicate with overseas friends before this?

....party planning. Nope, I don't have anyone to host it for, but if I did, it would be great. Seriously. Maybe I should invest this time into planning my wedding?

...pearl earrings

...strawberries