October 21

Baby Bay would have been due October 21. There are certain dates that are just more difficult than others, so we chose to get away for the weekend with just our little family. It is so crazy how much you can miss someone you've never met and how you deeply you can love someone you've never held in your arms. The brokenness is real, and the grief hits hard and often. 

One day, I do hope to hold a baby Bay in my arms but I know that even if I do, we will always long to have known THIS one, and the three others we won't meet in this life. We grieve this child, the memories we are missing out on, the joy that might have been had, and the life we might have lived. 

It's hard to wait in the silence sometimes, wondering what paths our family might take on this journey, thought God meets us in our need. 

For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen, but to the things that are unseen. 

Happy would-be birth-day little one. We can't wait to meet you some day and we will never stop loving you and remembering your short time in our lives. And thank you to the many sweet friends who reached out to us this weekend. It is so good to be loved and heard and cared for by so many.